nucmednet Chapter 187 Long separation
Chapter 187 Long separation
His brows were tightly furrowed, like two deep grooves, and his eyes revealed deep worry.
Sima Yao was also in a state of conflict and anxiety. "She is in such a difficult situation, I must find a way to help her." But for a moment, he felt helpless.
"That's right. In the past six months, I have relied on my friend's help to barely keep the theater's equipment. But her financial situation is also very average. In addition, after tonight, I have to send you back to Dasheng. At this moment, I really can't think of any good way to solve this problem." Gu Nianzhi's voice became lower and lower, as if the last glimmer of hope was gradually disappearing. Her eyes became empty, looking at the congested vehicles ahead, her heart felt extremely desperate.
The traffic jam was like her confused thoughts at the moment, unable to move forward, unable to get out of it. "Is there really no way out? Is grandpa's hard work going to be destroyed in my hands?" Her heart felt like it was falling into an ice cellar, freezing cold.
Sima Yao turned his head and looked forward, as if thinking about something. His eyes revealed a kind of firmness and determination, as if he was thinking about a solution. Various possible solutions flashed through his mind quickly, but he rejected them one by one. He knew that these solutions could not fundamentally solve Gu Nianzhi's problem. "There must be a way, there must be." He muttered silently in his heart, unwilling to give up the possibility of finding hope.
"The road is always made by people. Don't be so depressed. There will always be a way." Sima Yao tried to comfort Gu Nianzhi. Although his voice was not loud, it was full of power. The voice was like a stream breaking through the ice in spring, firm and warm. Every word seemed to carry an invisible magic, trying to dispel the haze in Gu Nianzhi's heart. His eyes were focused and sincere, staring at Gu Nianzhi closely, hoping that his words could bring her a glimmer of hope and let her not give up so easily.
Sima Yao's heart was filled with sympathy and worry. He knew very well the pain and helplessness that Gu Nianzhi was feeling at the moment. "I must cheer her up and not let her be defeated by the difficulties." He swore secretly in his heart, and his hands unconsciously clenched into fists, as if to encourage himself.
With the help of traffic police, the vehicles ahead have slowly started to move.
Sima Yao said, "Look, isn't the road ahead slowly becoming smoother? Perhaps the difficulties we face will also gradually turn around, just like the traffic." His eyes were full of expectation and encouragement. The expectation was like a burning bonfire, hot and bright; the encouragement was like a spring breeze, gentle and powerful. The corners of his mouth slightly raised, trying to convey more confidence and courage to Gu Nianzhi with his smile.
As the vehicle moved, a glimmer of hope rose in Sima Yao's heart, "Perhaps this really is a good sign, and everything will slowly get better." He kept praying for Gu Nianzhi in his heart, hoping that she could rekindle her fighting spirit.
Gu Nianzhi nodded slightly. Although she was still in a heavy mood, Sima Yao's words still gave her a glimmer of hope. That glimmer of hope was like a little starlight in the darkness. Although it was weak, it was enough to illuminate the direction for her to move forward. Her lips trembled slightly. She wanted to say something, but she didn't know where to start.
"Yes, I can't give up just like that. I have to persevere no matter how difficult it is." Gu Nianzhi encouraged herself in her heart. She tried hard to get rid of the haze in her heart and cheer herself up again.
She knew she couldn't be defeated so easily. For her grandfather's last wish and for those who had always supported her, she had to be strong and continue to find a solution to the problem. "Even if there is only a glimmer of hope, I will do my best." Gu Nianzhi's eyes gradually became firm, and her hands gripped the steering wheel even more tightly.
The car moved forward slowly, but Gu Nianzhi's mood was still like the gloomy sky, not knowing when the real sunshine would come. With every meter forward, her heart was filled with anxiety and uneasiness. "The road ahead is still long, can I really find a way out?" She kept asking herself in her heart.
Sima Yao kept looking ahead, secretly determined in his heart to do his best to help Gu Nianzhi overcome the difficulties. He knew that in this strange world, he and Gu Nianzhi had become each other's support, and he had to face it all with her. "I won't let her bear all this alone, there must be a way." Sima Yao's eyes became more and more determined, as if he had seen the dawn of the future.
As the car moved, the surrounding scenery kept changing. The lights of the city flickered in the night sky, like countless dazzling gems inlaid on the black sky. Those lights shone through the car window, sprinkling on Gu Nianzhi and Sima Yao, illuminating the road ahead for them.
Gu Nianzhi's mood gradually calmed down during the slow progress. She shifted her gaze from the road ahead to the outside of the car window, watching the rapidly receding street scenes. The turmoil in her heart gradually subsided. She began to rethink her future and how to revitalize the troupe. "I can't just give up like this. There must be a way." She said to herself silently in her heart, with a hint of determination in her eyes.
Sima Yao also fell into deep thought, his eyes were deep and far-reaching, as if he had traveled through time and space and returned to the palace of Dasheng. He was thinking about his experience in Dasheng, those power struggles, those life-and-death tests, maybe they could give him some inspiration and help him find a way to help Gu Nianzhi. "I have experienced so many storms, I must be able to learn something from them to help her out of the predicament." He secretly made up his mind, tapping the edge of the car window with his fingers.
The car finally drove out of the congested road and gradually accelerated. The wind came in through the gaps in the car window and blew on their faces. Gu Nianzhi and Sima Yao did not speak, but their hearts were full of hope and determination. No matter how difficult the road ahead was, they decided to go on bravely.
In the moving car, Gu Nianzhi and Sima Yao talked about their experiences in this world. Her voice echoed softly in the small space of the car, like a gentle evening breeze, carrying wisps of memories and emotions.
"I have experienced too many ups and downs in this world." Gu Nianzhi narrowed her eyes slightly, and her thoughts seemed to have returned to those distant years. Her eyes became soft and full of warmth, as if she could see through the curtain of time and see her former self. "When I was a child, I grew up in a drama troupe with my grandfather. The drama troupe at that time was full of vitality and vigor. Every time I saw my grandfather's wonderful performance on the stage, my heart was full of admiration and yearning." Her voice was soft and slow, and every word seemed to carry the warmth and joy of childhood.
A smile appeared on Gu Nianzhi's face, which was a remembrance of the good memories. "Every movement and every look of grandpa was full of charm. The audience cheered and applauded, and the warm atmosphere made me feel that opera is the most beautiful thing in the world." Her heartbeat seemed to return to the opera troupe full of laughter and joy with the memories.
"Later, my grandfather handed the troupe over to me. At the beginning, I was full of confidence and felt that I could run it successfully. But reality dealt me a heavy blow." Gu Nianzhi sighed, with a hint of helplessness and loss in her eyes. Her lips trembled slightly, as if those painful experiences were still stinging her heart. "The operation of the troupe requires a lot of funds, but the audience is getting smaller and smaller, and the income is getting smaller and smaller. In order to save money, I learned to make props and costumes by myself, and did everything myself. I got up before dawn every day to prepare various things needed for the performance, and stayed up late at night to plan publicity plans."
Gu Nianzhi's voice gradually became low, "Sometimes I am so tired that I can't even straighten my back, but as long as I think of grandpa's expectations, I tell myself to persevere." She clenched the corners of her clothes tightly with both hands, and her joints turned white due to the force.
"I went everywhere to solicit sponsorship and participated in various activities, hoping to let more people know about our troupe. Sometimes, being rejected and laughed at by others really made me feel uncomfortable." Gu Nianzhi's voice trembled slightly, and the frustrations and grievances she had experienced seemed to come flooding back to her mind. Her eyes became dim, and as she recalled the difficult past, her heart felt like it was being weighed down by a heavy stone.
Gu Nianzhi unconsciously clenched her hands, her knuckles turning white from the force. "Every time I walked into the doors of those companies with hope, I walked out again and again in disgrace. That feeling is really unpleasant." Her voice was full of helplessness and bitterness, as if one could see her lonely figure waiting in the lobby of those magnificent office buildings.
"Once, I went to a large company to seek sponsorship. I waited at the door for several hours, but I didn't even see the person in charge. Another time, I participated in a cultural event and prepared a long introduction, but was treated coldly by the audience." Gu Nianzhi's lips trembled slightly, and those scenes were as clear as yesterday in her mind. "That day, it was pouring rain outside. I stood outside the building of that company, my whole body was soaked, but I still hoped for a chance. But in the end, the security guards only coldly drove me away." Tears flashed in the corners of her eyes, which was the fragility after being hurt.
"When I participated in the event, I stood on the stage and looked at the cold eyes of the audience. I felt like a clown. All my enthusiasm and efforts were ruthlessly trampled on." Gu Nianzhi took a deep breath and tried to calm himself down. "But I never thought of giving up, because this is my grandfather's hard work and the career I love."
Gu Nianzhi's eyes became firm and persistent, a strength that burst out from the depths of her heart. "Every time I see the audience being moved by our performance on stage, every time I receive sincere feedback from the audience, I feel that all the hard work is worth it." A smile appeared on her face, which was the joy and satisfaction from the heart. "When I saw the tears in the eyes of the audience and heard their warm applause, I knew that everything we did was meaningful."
Sima Yao listened quietly, his eyes full of concentration and sympathy. His eyes were fixed on Gu Nianzhi, as if he wanted to share her pain. His fingers tapped the armrests of the chair, each tapping with emotion for Gu Nianzhi's experience.
"That is to say, you are not living well in your own world." Sima Yao's words seemed to sum up everything about Gu Nianzhi. His voice was low and steady, with a barely perceptible heaviness.
Gu Nian was stunned, thought about it carefully, and then answered: "From a material point of view, I am indeed short of money. I often worry about the rent, the salaries of the actors, and sometimes even my own life is difficult to guarantee." The corners of her mouth showed a bitter smile, which was full of helplessness and self-mockery. "Every month, looking at the long list of bills, my heart feels like a mountain is pressing down on me."
“But actually I don’t think I have a bad life here. I have close friends here, like Li Yiru, who always lends a helping hand to me when I’m in the most difficult times, and gives me support and encouragement. I remember one time, I didn’t even have the money to pay the actors’ salaries, and it was Li Yiru who lent me her savings without hesitation.” Gu Nianzhi’s eyes were full of gratitude and warmth, as if he saw Li Yiru’s determined eyes and unhesitating actions again.
"The moment she handed me the money, I really felt that I was the luckiest person in the world. Having such a friend is a blessing in my life." Gu Nianzhi's voice became soft and affectionate, "And those partners who stayed with me in the troupe, although we faced many difficulties, our hearts were together."
Gu Nianzhi's eyes became soft and warm. "Every time we encounter difficulties in rehearsal, we will work together to find a solution. If an actor is sick, others will take the initiative to help share his role. This kind of unity and mutual assistance makes me feel extremely warm." The scene of everyone working together emerged in her mind. The sweat and smiles intertwined together became the most precious memories in her heart.
"I have a career that I love to pass on, and opera is an indispensable part of my life. Every time I see the lights on the stage come on and hear the applause from the audience, I feel that all my efforts are worth it. Moreover, everything that is familiar to me, the streets here, the people here, the atmosphere here, all make me feel extremely cordial and at ease." Gu Nianzhi's voice was full of affection and attachment. Her eyes swept across the familiar street scenes outside the car window, her heart filled with emotion.
"What's more, I don't have to worry like I did in Dasheng." Gu Nianzhi's eyes flashed with emotion. Recalling the days in Dasheng, the life of being in a state of fear made her feel tired and scared.
"So, you have no attachment to Dasheng?" Sima Yao turned his head and looked at Gu Nianzhi who was concentrating on driving, and suddenly asked again. His eyes were full of inquiry and doubt, and his voice was particularly clear in the quiet car.