nucmednet Chapter 452 If she leaves, I will leave too
Chapter 452 If she leaves, I will leave too
Si Muyan pulled her second sister down to sit and asked her, "What's wrong with you?"
"I...it's nothing." The second sister lowered her head, unwilling to say more.
Si Muyan, however, knew her younger sister very well and asked, "Are you unhappy because of Third Sister's ascension to the throne?"
The second sister shook her head: "Big sister, I'm not unhappy. Actually, I should be happy, but I just feel that this is wrong..."
She felt it was wrong for a woman to become empress, but no one understood her when she spoke out. Her brother, friends, and even the Prince of Ning all thought there was something wrong with her thinking.
"Big sister, I know there's something wrong with my thinking, but I can't get rid of it," the second sister choked up. "I've tried to accept it, but I just can't, so I can only numb myself with official duties."
"Why should I accept this?" Si Muyan asked. "You think it's wrong for my younger sister to be the emperor, but there are many, many people in the world who think so. They think it's okay to adopt a member of the imperial family to be the emperor, and some even think it's okay to bring back the two sons of the late emperor from the imperial tomb to be the emperor."
The second sister was taken aback and shook her head: "No, if we adopt a son of the imperial clan, without the late emperor's edict, I'm afraid the imperial clan will try to find a loophole. And the late emperor's remaining sons are not fit to be emperors, and they are ruthless. If they become emperors, it will only be the common people who suffer."
“You’re right, I understand. If you simply oppose your younger sister becoming empress, you’ll only feel indignation instead of pain. It’s precisely because you oppose your younger sister becoming empress on the one hand, and on the other hand, you’re convinced that there’s no one more suitable, that you not only can’t handle this matter openly, but you also don’t have a solution in your heart. That’s the root of your pain.”
The second sister was caught up in her words and didn't know how to respond.
Si Muyan patted her shoulder: "It's okay if you can't accept the facts. What people need to learn is to accept their own thoughts."
The second sister asked instinctively, "What if you can't even accept your own thoughts?"
Si Muyan shrugged: "Then let's hide."
"Hide?"
Si Muyan said, "For example, I couldn't accept my younger sister entering the palace, but I didn't know what to do. So I simply took my parents and Xiaoxia to the estate to continue raising my chickens and growing my vegetables. If you can't accept it, just hide away and do things that make you happy."
The second sister nodded blankly, then murmured, "But solving cases is what I want to do... Why am I still unhappy?"
"Is solving cases really what you want to do?" Si Muyan asked. "Before, I thought being a parasite in the Marquis's mansion was something I was happy to do. But it wasn't until my younger sister entered the palace that I realized what I really wanted was to go to the estate and be a wealthy, leisurely person, raising chickens and ducks, farming and growing vegetables, whatever I wanted."
The second sister stood there stunned for a long time, then mustered her courage and turned around: "Big sister, what if I abandon everything here?"
Si Muyan looked at her: "Si Mutong, no place in this world is indispensable to any one person."
The second sister's heart was pounding. It wasn't that she couldn't live without her, so in fact, she didn't have to bear such a responsibility at all, right?
but……
The second sister asked, "Elder sister, do you also oppose your younger sister becoming empress?"
“I don’t object,” Si Muyan said. “From the moment my younger sister entered the palace, I understood that the three of us sisters have very different personalities. So after that, I never thought of interfering with what she did. Second sister, I feel the same way about you. Whatever choice you make, I won’t interfere. Even if I don’t support it, I will respect your choice.”
The second sister suddenly laughed, walked over, and leaned on Si Muyan's shoulder.
Actually, the three sisters had different personalities from a young age. The second sister was not the type to rely on others, nor would she act coquettishly towards her eldest sister.
Furthermore, because the eldest sister was strict, the second sister was used to talking to her younger sister rather than to her eldest sister.
But at this moment, she suddenly understood what dependence meant: when you are indecisive, you have a relative who is not on your side, who will neither criticize you nor go along with you.
Instead, it helped her confront her own inner self.
After a long pause, the second sister said, "Eldest sister, I originally thought that when Xia'er grew a little older, I would take her back to the Marquis's mansion and raise her myself. But I'm afraid I'll have to leave her with you again."
Si Muyan smiled and said, "She's doing well with me. Second sister, you must remember that everyone is their own eagle, and eagles always have to spread their wings and fly high. Just fly earnestly. Home is your harbor, not a rope that tethers you. Xiaoxia is your daughter, not a burden."
The second sister smiled happily.
Instead of resigning from her official post, she went directly to the palace to plead with her younger sister, expressing her desire to travel to various places to promote the law.
The younger sister was quite puzzled: "I heard from Prince Ning that your performance was excellent, and he plans to relinquish control of the Dali Temple in a while. There will be an assessment at that time, and with your abilities, you will be more than capable of becoming a head of the temple."
The second sister shook her head: "But I do not intend to stay. I know that Your Majesty is in need of capable people, but I also understand that Your Majesty needs not only capable people, but also loyal people. I do not support Your Majesty. My loyalty to Your Majesty is due to blood ties, but I am worried that such loyalty cannot last long."
The younger sister understood what the second sister meant, and after a moment's thought, she nodded in agreement.
If the second sister is kept, and a conflict arises in the future, it will only weaken their sisterly bond.
However, when the younger sister issued the decree, the first person to object was Prince Ning.
Prince Ning rushed into the palace and said, "Your Majesty, I went to great lengths to keep her here. How can Your Majesty let her leave without saying a word?"
The younger sister looked at her and said, "Prince Ning also saw that she has become increasingly haggard since I ascended the throne. Today, when she entered the palace, I saw that she was even unsteady on her feet. Is it better to force her to stay if she is already so weak?"
Prince Ning paused.
The younger sister continued, "She is my elder sister, and I know her better than you do. Her stubbornness far surpasses that of others, which is why, all these years, even though she still loves you, she has insisted on not accepting you. She was the same in the matter of my ascension to the throne."
"However, she suppressed her inner dissatisfaction and forced herself to accept me. She could only blame herself to please me. But Xiao Youchuan, I am her family. How can I watch her suffer like this? It would be better to let her go. Perhaps one day in the future, she will understand and come back naturally."
Prince Ning opened his mouth, but remained silent for a long time.
In the end, he simply said, "Then... I must also resign from my post, for I wish to follow her in death."
The younger sister said, "The court is unstable, and you are the regent. At this time, if you abandon me, won't you feel guilty?"
"Your Majesty knows that I have never cared about power or status, only about her."
The younger sister closed her eyes and said after a long while, "Give me three years. Within three years, I will definitely govern the Great Zhou well and stabilize the court. If you want to leave then, I will not stop you."